I have to be the one to let you go.

Not because I want to; because I need to

And I don’t know which one is worse.

I have to release the idea of you and me

Even though it’s not as easy as it seems.

Lost in the land of make-believe

I’ve surrendered to the fact that this isn’t meant to be.

I’ve blown this up into something only I can see

That a future between you and me

Would truly be a wonderful thing.

Something full of effortless ease

Idealized from something only I can perceive.

Twiddling my thumbs, people passing by

I honor this pause that’s taken place in my life

Forcing me to recognize that it just isn’t our time.

I want so badly to pick your brain

Yet I’m terrified of what lies in that beautiful mind.

As much as it pains me so

I have to be the one to let you go.

Put myself first, do what’s best for me

Goodbye to whatever “this” was meant to be

Perhaps a blessing in disguise that I’ve yet to see.

Maybe one day our paths will cross once more

Older, wiser, and ready to explore

The very depths of what could have been in store.